Showing posts with label dangerous ground. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dangerous ground. Show all posts

Jul 21, 2011

Dangerous Ground 4: DEAD RUN

Alternate title, Josh Has No Blog Topic This Month

So in honor of my utter lack of time management skills, I'm offering up an excerpt from my next Loose Id release -- the one I'm still, er, writing. Do I need to mention that it's rough, rough, rough? But that's kind of fun in it's own way, isn't it?

Say yes.

So for your viewing pleasure and with pictures even...

Quick and Dirty Summary:
Special Agents Will and Taylor desperately need their long planned romantic holiday in Paris, but an explosive turn of events leaves them questioning whether their partnership is a thing of the past.

Excerpt:
There was something familiar about the man at the airline ticket counter.



Taylor studied him for a moment. Medium height -- slightly stooped -- medium weight, aquiline features beneath the tweed cap. Nothing unique about an old man in a raincoat. In fact, the very ordinariness of him was part of what caught Taylor’s eye. It was like the old guy had taken inconspicuous to an art form.

“Next!” called one of the agents at the check in desk. The party in front of Taylor dragged their children and luggage to the next open space at the long desk. Taylor stepped forward. The serpentine line shuffled and scooted behind him.

Had he remembered the photos of Riley? Taylor double-checked quickly. No. He’d left them on the kitchen table. Damn. He knew how much Will missed that damn dog and he’d meant the snapshots as a little surprise.

Oh well. If Will wanted to see Riley that much, he could always come home.

Taylor glanced up automatically as the old man ahead of him turned away from the ticket counter.

Dark eyes met his, held his gaze for an instant, then dismissed him. The back of Taylor’s neck prickled. No. No way. It couldn’t be.

But he couldn’t quite ignore that feeling of recognition.

Yann Helloco.

He’d been reading an article in American Cop on the history of modern terrorism in Europe and that had to be why he was suddenly seeing a long dead Breton separatist in the first senior citizen wearing a beret who crossed his path.

Okay, not a beret, but close enough to trigger the connection.

A ticket agent at the far end opened and nodded to Taylor. “Sir.”

The line behind Taylor breathed a collective sigh. One step closer to the prize.

Taylor hesitated.

“Next in line please.” The ticket agent encouraged when Taylor didn’t seem to be getting the hint.

Taylor groaned inwardly. He was probably wrong.

More importantly, he was on vacation. He had a plane to catch. A plane he had no intention of missing. It had been eleven months since he’d seen Will. Eleven months since they’d been together. No fucking way was he missing this plane.

But what if he wasn’t wrong? What if by some crazy coincidence he had just seen a ghost?

Oh what the hell.

He moved instead to the agent who had assisted Helloco, if Helloco it was. She was busily putting a little CLOSED sign at her place, with the air of one who was taking her break come hell or high water.

He sized her up fast. Cute and prim in her navy blue polyester. A girl in love with the rules and regulations. He looked for her name badge. Bridget Martinez.

“Bridget.” She did her best not to see him, but Taylor pasted on his most charming smile and pushed harder. “That guy you just gave a boarding pass to -- where is he headed?”

Bridget looked as surprised as if her ticket machine had asked her to bring it back a cappuccino. “Sir?”

“Your last customer. I need his name and his flight number.” Taylor already had his DSS ID out. He was keeping his voice down, trying to avoid attention, but she was backing away from the counter, shaking her head, doing her best to separate herself from whatever situation he was trying to drag her into.

“I’m sorry but we can’t give out that information.”

Taylor pushed his ID toward her, hoping the problem was her vision. “I’m with the Diplomatic Security Service.”

Bridget stopped backing away but her expression grew more skeptical. “I never heard of it.”

“I’m with the State Department.”

“You just said you were with the Diplomacy Service. Anyway, that’s not what your badge says.”

“The hell it doesn’t.” Taylor jabbed his finger at the blue and gold ring around the seal on his badge. Department of State. Diplomatic Security Service. It says it right here.”

Bridget’s didn’t exactly roll her eyes, but if he thought she’d been born yesterday, he clearly had another think coming. “Anyone can have one of those made.”

“Are you kidding me?”

“It doesn’t even look real.”

As much as Taylor hadn’t wanted to start this, her obstructive attitude hardened his resolve. “Get your manager.” He watched the luggage moving on the conveyor belt behind Bridget. “Did he check a bag?”

“Who?”

He smothered his exasperation. “The guy you just checked in. Do not let any of his luggage go through.”

Bridget was looking at Taylor as though he were a nut. In fairness, working at a ticket counter in an airport probably jaded you as fast as working in law enforcement.

Bridget waved to another airline employee in a navy suit. “Mr. Yousef! Mr. Yousef, can I see you please.”

Maybe she was trying for discretion, but the overall impression was clean up on aisle three! Bored passengers were staring their way and the man who might be -- but probably was not -- Yann Helloco was now a quickly disappearing tan raincoat in a crowd of tan raincoats heading for the security screening lines.

Mr. Yousef, big, black and bald with an unexpectedly charming smile, joined Bridget at the counter. He silently examined Taylor’s ID as Bridget filled him on the details.

“This customer is trying to get personal information about another customer. He says he’s a secret agent.”

“What?” Taylor spared her a startled look before turning back to Yousef. “I’m with the DSS. That’s a division of the Bureau of Diplomatic Security.”

“Sure.” Mr. Yousef spoke in a deep and melodious bass. “You’re the guys who protect foreign bigwigs when they visit.”

“Right.” It was like the relief of finding someone who spoke English in a foreign country. “Among other things. Bridget here just processed a passenger who I believe might be wanted by Interpol.” He was trying very hard not to use the “T” word.

“Might,” Mr. Yousef repeated as the conveyor belt behind him lurched forward again.

“Please don’t let that bag go through without screening it,” Taylor told Bridget who was waiting hopefully for Mr. Yousef to chop him into mincemeat. She ignored him.

“Bag?” Mr. Yousef turned to Bridget who said with a tight little smile, “I tried to tell this gentleman that the other customer didn’t check any baggage.”

Taylor opened his mouth, but really, bigger fish to fry. He turned to Mr. Yousef. Mr. Yousef said, “Bridget, did you not see this agent’s identification and badge?”

“Well, yes, but you can get those made anywhere. And it doesn’t look real.”

Mr. Yousef shook his head apologetically at Taylor. “Let’s get the information Special Agent MacAllister needs,” he told Bridget.

Bridget returned to her computer and tapped the keys in quick, irritated strokes. She moved aside for Mr. Yousef who read aloud, “Yannick Hinault. He’s on his way to Paris on Delta Flight DL67 departing from Gate 57.”

Yann Helloco and Yannick Hinault. Not exactly case closed but surely too similar for coincidence?

“I’m leaving my stuff with you.” Taylor unloaded his suitcase and carryon bag ignoring Bridget’s instinctive protest. “Can you call the gate and have them hold that flight? And have security meet me there.”

“I can try,” Mr. Yousef said. “But you better be sure this is your guy or I wouldn’t want to be in your shoes.”

Taylor was already moving in that easy law enforcement lope that covered a lot of ground without giving the public the impression that there was cause for alarm. Even so he was moving way too fast for anyone in an airport and security officers were moving to intercept him as he headed for the screening tables.

A quick survey of the lines of shoeless and coatless passengers confirmed that there was no sign of Helloco or Hinault or whoever this asshole was who was already starting to interfere with Taylor’s much needed vacation.

Then the unis were blocking his view. Taylor flashed his tin, doing his best to explain the situation without triggering all the alarms in the place. It was his bitter experience that getting airport security involved was usually more trouble than it was worth, but there was no way around it. It was at times like these he missed Will. Will was so much better at finessing…well, everyone.

“Are you armed, Agent MacAllister?” a short, squat guy with a face like the Great Pumpkin questioned.

Taylor shook his head. “No. I’m on my annual leave. My weapon is secured at my place of residence.”

The rent-a-cops began to ask him the usual stuff -- had he been drinking, was he on medication? Did he look like a guy who had been drinking or was on medication? In the back of Taylor’s mind he could hear Will cautioning him to be cool, to play the game, so he bit back his immediate retort. He knew the ritual was partly departmental flexing of muscles and partly the fact that these were jokers who considered snagging a pair of nail scissors off old ladies a coup for law enforcement.

Another uniform joined the crowd surrounding Taylor. “He checks out.”

“Sorry for the hassle, but we have to follow procedure,” the Great Pumpkin told Taylor. “You know how it is.”

“Yeah. No problem. Can we move?”

To their credit, they did hustle their asses, leading the way through a complex maze of back door corridors until they reached Gate 57 where by now flight DL67 was boarding. Taylor strode quickly through the waiting area, scanning the seats and lines of bored looking passengers. There was no sign of Hinault.

He began studying body types and facial structure. If Hinault was Helloco, he was one cool and clever customer, so Taylor was putting no trick in the book past him.

The airline agent behind the customer service station spoke into the microphone. “Will passenger Yannick Hinault please report to the customer service desk? Passenger Yannick Hinault please report to the customer service desk.”

Taylor moved to the edge of the waiting area and watched for anyone trying to slip away. No one came to the desk and no one showed any interest in missing their flight.

Taylor swore inwardly. He turned to the milling security officers. The Great Pumpkin raised his arms in a beats me gesture.

Seriously?

Seriously?

Nov 18, 2010

BLOOD HEAT by Josh Lanyon



I forgot what I was blabbing about around the time of my last release -- I think perhaps the release fell between blogging dates -- ennnywhoooo (as my dear old gran used to say) I'm in that headlong rush to meeting a deadline and I thought I'd be a slacker this morning and just plug my latest LI release, Blood Heat.

Blood Heat is the third book in the Dangerous Ground series. That's the one about the two DSS agents who find their partnership and friendship endangered when one of them decides he's in love with the other. Matters come to a head (NO, don't say it) during a camping trip in the High Sierras.

It's the "hot tub story," in other words.




Dangerous Ground was followed by Old Poison AKA "the phone sex story" also known as "the cobra in a bottle" story (and that is NOT a sexual reference, for the record). I find in this genre that books are often referred to by...uh...specific scenes of intimacy. I'm sure that's just for convenience sake.

Not sure how readers will refer to Blood Heat. The "speeding bullet story?" The "flash flood story?" Certainly there are plenty of speeding bullets and a flash flood. Anyway, book three finds Will and Taylor on the run again. I hope you have as much fun reading as I did writing!

978-1-60737-869-3
Genre: LGBT Action/Adventure
Length: Novella
Series: Dangerous Ground; Previous Book: Old Poison
Price: $4.99

BLURB:
Special Agents for the Department of Diplomatic Security, Taylor MacAllister and Will Brandt have been partners forever and lovers for three months, but their new relationship is threatened when Will is offered a plum two-year assignment in Paris.

Will believes the posting only means postponing what they both want. Taylor fears that kind of separation will mean the end of their new and still-fragile relationship. It’s a bad time to find themselves in the middle of the New Mexico wilderness responsible for the health and welfare of a suspected terrorist. Especially when everyone else they run into seems determined to see their prisoner -- and them -- dead.


EXCERPT:
According to Taylor’s watch, it was after six in the morning by the time they started down the far side of the mountain and found the black SUV mired in mud up to its custom rims.

By then the rain had stopped and the water had receded considerably. The canyon road was a knee-high swamp of debris and water, but the danger was past.
“It could be anyone’s vehicle,” Will called as Taylor splashed through the water to peer through the tinted side windows.

“Sure,” Taylor said. “Who doesn’t go on vacation without taking their leg irons?”
Will joined him in the water-filled ruts at the side of the road, making a frame for his face and trying to see inside. “Are you sure?” He could just make out a baseball bat, what looked like a military utility bag, and, yes, metallic links that appeared to be leg shackles. “Hmm. You just might be right.”

“I guess someone could have kinky tastes.”

“You ought to know.”

Taylor grimaced.

“Which is one of the things I like best about you,” Will added.

“Just a born diplomat, aren’t you? No wonder you’re climbing through the ranks.”
Will had no reply to that. They sloshed through the water and clambered back to the relatively dry area of the hillside.

A flash of blue caught Will’s eye. A blue jay landed on the branch of a pine tree and greeted the morning with its harsh song. The sun was rising, and it was already growing warm. The receding floodwater had a dank, unhealthy smell to it.

Taylor wiped his forehead. “Which way do you think they went?”

“Assuming they aren’t lost or didn’t get swept away, they’ll be heading the same direction we are. They need food, water, and shelter, the same as us.”

“Hedwig couldn’t climb these mountains. Could she?”

Will shrugged. “I guess if she had to, she would. I’ve seen pregnant weight lifters. In magazines.”

“She didn’t look like the athletic type to me.”

“Maybe Nemov carried her. He looked like he could.”

“He looked like he could carry his SUV. I don’t know why he didn’t.” Taylor had his BlackBerry out and was clicking away and frowning at the results. Or lack of same.
“You’re not going to get any reception down here.”

Taylor muttered something uncomplimentary, though whether to the national forest or Will was unclear.

They began to walk, continuing at a brisk pace until the sun appeared over the trees. There wasn’t a cloud in the sky. Pine needles glistened and sparkled in the pure sunlight.

“You have to admit this is beautiful country,” Will said, shading his eyes and gazing up at the distant snowcapped mountains.

Taylor opened his mouth -- though it was unlikely he was going to admit anything of the kind -- when something big, mottled brown and gray burst out of the brush and took wing, gobbling in fright.

He jumped a foot and gazed openmouthed at Will. “Jesus. What was that?”

Will dropped against a tree trunk and tried not to laugh. He didn’t really have the breath to spare, but Taylor’s half-alarmed, half-offended expression struck him as hysterically funny.

“Wild turkey. A hen, I think. You should see the size of the toms.”

“No thanks. I prefer my turkeys on a Thanksgiving platter.”

Again, Will had to struggle not to laugh.

They resumed their hike, having found what looked like an old track. Possibly a former stagecoach route. It paralleled the highway for a time and then led up into the hills. It was Will who spotted the two sets of footprints in the mud. One large, one smaller.

“That answers one question. They both made it out of the flash flood.”

Taylor nodded. He looked as relieved as Will felt. “They’ll have holed up somewhere ahead of us on the trail. No way did he drag a pregnant woman up and down a mountainside in the middle of a rainstorm at night -- even if he wanted to. She’d never have made it.”

“Maybe he doesn’t need her to make it.”

Taylor stared at him, thinking it over. He shook his head. “In that case, I think he’d have taken advantage of the flood to arrange a fatal accident. Plenty of opportunity. Especially if he left her handcuffed. Get her halfway up the slope and then give her a little push. Oops.”

“You worry me sometimes.”

“Good.” Taylor grinned a brief and dangerous grin.


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Oct 21, 2010

Don't it Make My Brown Eyes Blue

I joined Twitter the day before yesterday. Yeah, me. After I said I'd never add my voice to ever increasing volume of white noise that surrounds us.

So what changed my mind? A couple of things. I think maybe first and foremost, my sibs are on Twitter and when I was expressing my dismay over this fact, they came back with, "In your business you're crazy not to be on Twitter."

In your business.

Oh yeah.

THAT.

Like all writers I know, I spend a lot of time (when I'm not wracking my brains for a new way to say the same thing after already saying it thirty plus times) wondering about the best way -- or any way -- to reach new readers. New target readers. Meaning the kind of reader who will actually read a gay erotic mystery or adventure and enjoy it. Targeting all mystery readers or all erotic reeaders or all readers is a common mistake of newbie (or desperate) writers. I know I need to focus my efforts, but how and where?

And so I experiment. And Twitter is one of those bubbling green fluids in my brimming test tube.

The other thing that changed my mind -- or at least opened it -- was when I started thinking of Twitter as a news feed as opposed to merely yet another social network. Not that social networks aren't fun, but these days I need to combine my fun with business. That's just how it is at this stage of the game.

When I saw the organizations and people I could subscribe to (AKA "follow") I admit I was kind of excited. I'm currently following Food and Wine magazine, The New Yorker, the Smithsonian...and a lot of my fellow writers. And...well, it's fun. More fun than I thought it would be, as a matter of fact.

Oddly enough it feels even looser and more friendly than Face Book, and its short format makes it easier to chat and share passing random thoughts about everything from what I'm hearing on the news to what I'm working on. It's...well, interesting. And it's yet another way to network and promote, which is what I need. What we all need to succeed in a very competitive field.

But that started me thinking how vital is promotion? Is it possible to network and promote a dog of a book into a bestseller? I used to think not, but evidence seems to indicate otherwise. I can see that it might work for a book or two, but can you promote your way into a successful writing career even if you can't write?

Is it possible to over-promote? I think so. There are writers I refuse to consider merely because they get so much acclaim and I just think...well, I don't like them and I probably wouldn't like their work. I mean, I don't know them, chances are I would like them since everyone seems to, but it's an example of how promo and marketing can backfire. I actually prefer it when certain things I love are mostly undiscovered except by me and a handful of folks in the know. Is that a weird thing? Probably.

Or is it all so subjective that really everyone can write, and there's no such thing as a bad book, and maybe it's all just me? That particular book just isn't for me? (I don't believe that, for the record, but YMMV.)

Enywhooooooo, inquiring minds want to know. And since it's a while since I've done a giveaway here at Loose Ends, I'm offering a free cyber set of the Dangerous Ground books -- Dangerous Ground, Old Poison, and the brand new release Blood Heat -- to a randomly selected commenter. So comment! Share your thoughts.

Oh, er, and don't forget to follow me on, er, .

Nov 19, 2009

In Praise of Popcorn by Josh Lanyon



Tuesday saw the release of Old Poison, the second book in the Dangerous Ground series. It's the one about the two DSS agents, partners and best friends, who suddenly realize there may just be more there to explore. And explore they do. At length and in detail. I jokingly call this my "popcorn" series because it's all action-adventure and sexy fun, but maybe I shouldn't because it gives the impression that these books are...tripe. And I don't think they are. Oh, they're not Dostoevsky -- I'm well aware -- but I'm as careful writing them as anything else. (Which, for the record, is painstakingly careful.) I may not always get it right, but it's not for lack of trying.

The problem, I suspect, is that these books are very easy for me to write -- and I enjoy writing them -- and after all I am The Josh, famed wide and far for Doin' eet Write, yeah? So how does the pure pulp pleasure jibe with my standing as Serious Author? Assuming you can wrap your gray cells around the notion of genre fiction being the stuff of serious writing.

It's a rhetorical question mostly because I love doing what I do or I'd do something else. I've done something else -- and made a heck of a lot more money at it -- so this is definitely about love of the work. The craft. And my craft is -- sometimes at least -- making popcorn balls. The best freaking popcorn balls out there, if I have anything to say about it.



Anyway, I was reading Old Poison's review at Jessewave's. I love Wave's reviews, by the way, because she is unabashed in what she likes and doesn't like. She loves books, she loves reading, and she isn't pretentious about it. She's not unkind, she's frank. Which is great if she enjoys what she read, and less delightful if she doesn't. But you're still getting the real Wave. Anyway, in the comment section Wave mentioned something to the effect that she loves my work but sometimes feels guilty (I'm paraphrasing like mad here) because she has yet to give me a bad review. Basically she feels guilty for enjoying herself too much.

Just as I feel guilty for enjoying myself when I write these books.

What is it about us humans that makes us prone to guilt for enjoying the things we love? We refer to so many things -- chocolate, television, genre fiction, bubble baths and taking time for ourselves -- as guilty pleasures. Why are we guilty about our pleasure?

I'm asking, I don't have an answer -- I just think it's an odd thing about our species. We have trouble being happy. Have you noticed that?

It's not like there is so much pleasure in all our lives that we can't stand one minute more -- or that there's so much laughter and love in the world that these things are trite and meaningless. If anything, given the state of the world, I think escapism is more important to people than ever before (barring a couple of World Wars).

Like I said, I don't have the answer. I'm curious as to what you think.

Sep 17, 2009

Familiar Faces



I realized belatedly this morning that I had a blog due today. It's been a incredibly productive -- but exhausting -- month. So far I've written the Halloween Fling sequel to I Spy Something Bloody. It's called I Spy Something Wicked. About Fifteen thousand words of wicked.

It's the one about the British spy who wants to retire to Old Virginny with his skeptical lover the handsome, fiftyish doctor. But Mark's (that would be the spy) old enemies won't let him. (This time around it's his friends who won't let him be.)





One of the questions we writers get asked a lot is, is it easier to write series or stand alones? I think it's about the same. In some ways revisiting old characters is easy -- you've done the ground-work. But you've also got more to remember, especially if you put a lot of careful detail in about those characters. Like I gave Mark a love of waffles and classical music. But he starts the story out listening to rock. The boyfriend's influence, I expect.

It helps if you keep a character "bible" but I don't tend to do that with characters I only plan on using once. And that was initially how I approached all these novellas. They were supposed to be pleasantly complicated one-offs. The only series I planned on doing was the Adrien English series.

But these characters turned out to be more popular than I anticipated and readers wanted more of them, and I found myself curious about how some of the dynamics I had set up might ultimately turn out.

So that was the beginning of the month, and then last week I did a Christmas novella for Samhain, which I really, really like -- all new characters on that one. It's pretty much my first straight (as in no real mystery) romance. It's very...er... quirky.

And then this week I'm working on Old Poison, which is the sequel to Dangerous Ground. That's one of my all time most favorite stories (both with me and readers). It's my popcorn movie novella. Two special agents for the DSS are trying to salvage their relationship after one of them is shot following a declaration of his feelings for the other.



Er, I should hasten to add he wasn't shot by his partner. He was shot because his mind wasn't on the job -- or so his guilt-stricken partner thinks. Anyway, they go camping in the High Sierras to try and mend their friendship and partnership. But, as you probably know, NOTHING good can over come of camping.

Just kidding. Although I do much prefer hotels.

Anyway, they survived camping. This time it's trickier to write because there's a lot more about their jobs -- they're Special Agents for the DSS (which is a fascinating organization, if you've read anything about it) -- and because the first time around they were too busy running for their lives to put in a lot of details. Although I did manage to throw in a couple of complicating things like...Will has a dog.

Why do I do things like that?

Now do I kill that damn dog or do I drag it along through this story?

So that's this week. Next week I have a Halloween ghost story due for MLR Press. New characters for that one -- it's a historical about spiritualists and serials killers. It's going to be complicated, without a doubt. Because that, apparently, is what I do.

I don't even want to tell you how many sets of edits I'm working on right now. Let's just say it is a hellishly busy month. But, assuming I finish all this on time, it's a relatively sane ride back to the barn.

So that's it for me. That's my month.

What are you working on? And what do you prefer -- as reader or a writer -- series or stand alones?

Apr 22, 2008

Dangerous Ground




Today Dangerous Ground releases a week early from Loose Id. I freely admit the idea for this story came to me watching an episodes of the old British cop show The Professionals.


If you're not familiar with this show -- and you're probably not -- it's about two British special agents in a mythical law enforcement agency known as CI5. What I always liked about the show was the partnership -- and friendship -- between the two alpha male leads. I thought it would be fun for a change to write a romance between two alphas and see what happened.

What happened was Dangerous Ground, which is about Will Brandt and Taylor MacAllister, two Special Agents with the Department of Diplomatic Security who go on a camping trip in the High Sierras in the hopes of repairing their badly damaged partnership -- a partnership that started to unravel once Taylor admitted his feelings for Will were something more than professional.


Here's a brief excerpt:


They had instant black bean soup and the Mexican-style chicken for
dinner, and followed it up with the freeze dried ice cream and coffee.

"It's not bad," Taylor offered, breaking off a piece of ice cream and
popping it in his mouth.

Actually the ice cream wasn't that bad. It crunched when you put it
in your mouth, then dissolved immediately, but Will said, "What do
you know? You'll eat anything. If I didn't watch out you'd be eating
poison mushrooms or poison berries or poison oak."

Taylor grinned. It was true; he was a city boy through and through.
Will was the outdoors guy. He was the one who thought a week of
camping and hiking was what they needed to get back on track; Taylor
was humoring him by coming along on this trip. In fact, Will was
still a little surprised Taylor had agreed. Taylor's idea of vacation
time well-spent was on the water and in the sun: renting a house
boat — like they had last summer -- or deep sea fishing — which
Taylor had done on his own the year before.

"They never did arrest anyone in connection with that heist, did
they?" Taylor said thoughtfully, after a few more minutes of
companionable chewing.

"What heist?"

Taylor threw him an impatient look. "The robbery at the Black Wolf
Casino."

"Oh. Not that I heard. I wasn't really following it." Taylor had a
brain like a computer when it came to crimes and unsolved mysteries.
When Will wasn't working, which granted was rarely, the last thing he
wanted to do was think about crooks and crime — especially the ones
that had nothing to do with them.

But Taylor was shaking his head like Will was truly a lost cause, so
he volunteered, "There was something about the croupier, right? She
was questioned a couple of times."

"Yeah. Questioned but never charged." He shivered.

Will frowned. "You all right?"

"Jesus, will you give it a rest!" And just like that, Taylor was
unsmiling, stone-faced and hostile.

There was a short sharp silence. "Christ, you can be an unpleasant
bastard," Will said evenly, finally. He threw the last of his foil
wrapped ice cream in the fire, and the flames jumped, sparks shooting
up with bits of blackened foil.

Taylor said tersely, "You want a more pleasant bastard for a partner,
say the word."

The instant aggression caught Will off-guard. Where the hell had it
come from? "No, I don't want someone more pleasant," he said. "I
don't want a new partner."

Taylor stared at the fire. "Maybe I do," he said quietly.

Will stared at him. He felt like he'd been sucker-punched. Dopey and…
off-kilter.

"Why'd you say that?" he asked finally into the raw silence between
them.

He saw Taylor's throat move, saw him swallowing hard, and he
understood that although Taylor had spoken on impulse, he meant it —
and that he was absorbing that truth even as Will was.

"We're good together," Will said, not giving Taylor time to answer —
afraid that if Taylor put it into words they wouldn't be able to go
back from it. "We're…the best. Partners and friends."

He realized he was gripping his coffee cup so hard he was about to
break the plastic.

Taylor said, his voice low but steady, "Yeah. We are. But...it might
be better for both of us if we were re-teamed."

"Better for you, you mean?"

Taylor met his eyes. "Yeah. Better for me."

And now Will was getting angry. It took him a moment to recognize the
symptoms because he wasn't a guy who got mad easily or often — and
never at Taylor. Exasperated, maybe. Disapproving sometimes, yeah.
But angry? Not with Taylor. Not even for getting himself shot like a
goddamned wet-behind-the-ears recruit. But that pricking flush
beneath his skin, that pounding in his temples, that rush of
adrenaline — that was anger. And it was all for Taylor.

Will threw his cup away and stood up — aware that Taylor tensed.
Which made him even madder — and Will was plenty mad already. "Oh, I
get it," he said. "This is payback. This is you getting your own
back — holding the partnership hostage to your hurt ego. This is all
because I won't sleep with you, isn't it? That's what it's really
about."

And Taylor said in that same infuriatingly even tone, "If that's what
you want to think, go ahead."

Right. Taylor: the guy who jumped first and thought second — if at
all — who couldn't stop shooting his mouth off if his life depended
on it — who thought three months equaled the love of a lifetime —
suddenly he was Mr. Cool and Reasonable. What a goddamn laugh. Mr.
Wounded Dignity sitting there staring at Will with those wide, bleak
eyes.

"What am I supposed to think?" Will asked, and it took effort to keep
his voice as level as Taylor's. "That you're in love? We both know
what this is about, and it ain't love, buddy boy. You just can't
handle the fact that anyone could turn you down."

"Fuck you," Taylor said, abandoning the cool and reasonable thing.

"My point exactly," Will shot back. "And you know what? Fine. If
that's what I have to do to hold this team together, fine. Let's
fuck. Let's get it out of the way once and for all. If that's your
price, then okay. I'm more than willing to take one for the team — or
am I supposed to do you? Whichever is fine by me because unlike you,
MacAllister, I —"

With an inarticulate sound, Taylor launched himself at Will, and
Will, unprepared, fell back over the log he'd been sitting on, head
ringing from Taylor's fist connecting with his jaw. This was rage,
not passion, although for one bewildered instant Will's body
processed the feel of Taylor's whip-thin muscular length landing on
top of his own body as a good thing — a very good thing.

This was followed by the very bad thing of Taylor trying to knee him
in the guts — which sent a new and more clear message to Will's mind
and body.

And there was nothing Will would have loved more than to let go and
pulverize Taylor, to take him apart, piece by piece, but he didn't
forget for an instant — even if Taylor did — how physically
vulnerable Taylor still was; so his effort went into keeping Taylor
from injuring himself — which was not easy to do wriggling and
rolling around on the uneven ground. Even at seventy five percent,
Taylor was a significant threat, and Will took a few hits before he
managed to wind his arms around the other man's torso, yanking him
into a sitting position facing Will, and immobilizing him in a
butterfly lock.

Taylor tried a couple of heaves, but he had tired fast. Will was the
better wrestler anyway, being taller, broader, and heavier. Taylor
relied on speed and surprise; he went in for all kinds of esoteric
martial arts, which was fine unless someone like Will got him on the
ground. Taylor was usually too smart to let that happen, which just
went to show how furious he was.

Will could feel that fury still shaking Taylor — locked in this ugly
parody of a lover's embrace. He shook with exhaustion too, breath
shuddering in his lungs as he panted into Will's shoulder. His wind
was shit these days, his heart banging frantically against Will's.
These marks of physical distress undermined Will's own anger,
reminding him how recently he had almost lost Taylor for good.

Taylor's moist breath against Will's ear was sending a confusingly
erotic message, his body hot and sweaty — but Christ he was thin.
Will could feel — could practically count — ribs, the hard links of
spine, the ridges of scapula in Taylor's fleshless back. And it
scared him; his hold changing instinctively from lock to hug.

"You crazy bastard," he muttered into Taylor's hair.

Taylor struggled again, and this time Will let him go. Taylor got up,
not looking at Will, not speaking, walking unsteadily, but with a
peculiar dignity, over to the tent.

Watching him, Will opened his mouth, then shut it. Why the hell would
he apologize? Taylor had jumped him. He watched, scowling, as Taylor
crawled inside the tent, rolled out his sleeping back onto the air
mattress Will had remembered to set up for him, pulled his boots off,
and climbed into the bag, pulling the flap over his head — like
something going back into its shell.

This is stupid, Will thought. We neither of us want this. But what he
said was, "Sweet dreams to you too."

Taylor said nothing.



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